Insufficiencies – part 1
“Do good” is insufficient funds
While on the onset, it appears that the desire to “do good” is a lofty and higher desire, it is the case that as we have encountered before in this blog, things are not what they seem.
When you contemplate this a little bit, you may find that this desire to “do good” is based on the desire to “please others” so as to gain their love and approval and thus feel good about ourselves. It pretty much starts when we are children and our parents tell us what is “right” and “wrong” and why we should be doing the “right” things which include doing whatever they want us to do, regardless whether it is “right” or not. As children we find that if we do what our parents tell us, we receive their approval and we feel good, if we disobey them we receive disapproval / punishment many times accompanied with a few remarks on how “bad” we are and why we should be “good”. As we grow up, we are then send to school, where “doing good” becomes pleasing teachers, getting good grades, and “fitting in” with other classmates. Otherwise, there is double the trouble, first at school and then at home. Somewhere along this time, we then begin to hear why we should be “good” people so as to please “God” and avoid his punishment.
After school and perhaps college, we then enter the workforce where we now have to be good obedient workers, good team players, and good at pleasing the boss. Again, trouble awaits if we fail in any of these aspects. If marriage comes along, then we have to be a “good spouse” and eventually, for most, a “good parent”. Otherwise there is trouble and disapproval. But that is not sufficient, because we also have to be a “good citizen”. We have to be productive, pay taxes, and quietly obey the law. Otherwise there is penalty, loss of property, and perhaps even jail time. And when we thought we had enough, our parents get old and our “duty” to be “good children” is called upon to take care of them.
So as you can see, our desire to “do good” is born out of the need to please others so as to gain their love and approval. It is also born of our need to avoid trouble and punishment.
At one time in our journey, we asked Father what takes away “good things” such as personal improvement, accomplishment, and success from our lives and Father explained to us it is this need to “do good”. Here is His Answer:
Right & Proper in your Endeavor,
you would say it is not so, however,
your earnest desire to “do good” makes it so.
Father told us that while we would not say or believe that this could be so, it is the desire to “do good” that causes things to be taken away or vanish. This is so because when we are seeking to please others to earn their love, we are giving our energy away to them. This is then manifested in the physical world as insufficient funds.
It is you can never “do good enough”.
“It’s never enough to please your father of your endeavor.”
“Your desire to “earn” love of your Endeavor is never enough,
for to conspire to earn love of your Endeavor
is “insufficient means”.
“Doing good” so as to “earn” love is never enough, because it is based on a damaged perception of ourselves and the false belief that the only way we can experience love is by getting others to find us to be “good” and thus approve of us. On one hand we give our energy away and on the other what we receive from this behavior doesn’t solve the problem, thus, as time passes by, things simply get worse and we find ourselves hungrier.
What is Father’s Solution to this problem?
Be the Love you are. No more, no less.
That is to say, rather than seeking to “do good”, we restore our capacity to be Love as Self once again. Restored, we no longer give our energy away to please others. Restored, we are once again Harmonious with Creation and thus can receive the Means that Father makes available to us each and every day. This then satiates us and leaves us satisfied.
So what about others? Wouldn’t they get angry with us? Wouldn’t this get us in trouble and perhaps bring punishment to us? In this regard this is what Father has Said to us:
"It matters not what others may say or think.
It matters always only That Which Is
Divinely Appointed each day."
That is to say, it is ok for others to get angry and disapprove. When this happens, we simply do not play their game and maintain our focus on that which is before us to do in the Father Way.