Even though several hours had passed since Aurora’s departure, Showay was
still amazed by the extent to which her conveyance had awakened him to the part
of his Soul that identified with the maternal, feminine energy. While in the
past he would have automatically blamed and condemned himself for such
experience, this time, he allowed himself to welcome and embrace it. Aurora’s
words were still dancing in his mind, "You are longing to restore the
effeminate receptive principle needs to go a transformation into the masculine
receptive principle."
It was a challenging thing to do for sure, but he reminded himself often that
it was ok to surface this effeminate energy so he could allow its
transformation. As he did this, he remembered another conversation with Aurora.
A conversation in which she explained how individuals who consider themselves
spiritual, sometimes blind themselves to distortions of self because after all,
in their logic "spiritual people don’t have those problems or act in such
ways."
"If I were to not block myself or deny myself," Showay pondered, "what would I
do or experience? What else could I do to support this process?"
As he contemplated this while focused on his breathing, he was shown. Without
delay, Showay made a short trip to the store and acquired some nourishing
female clothing. Back at home, he proceeded to change clothes still amazed by
how excited he felt about the entire process. A lot of energy was being freed
and moved. It was almost an intoxicating and overpowering experience.
Once dressed, he looked in the mirror and got fully in touch with his Soul.
"Wow," he exclaimed, "my Soul had really been wanting to do this for a
while."
Rather than allowing himself to get lost in the energy, Showay reminded himself
that the process he was undergoing wasn’t about making this effeminate desire a
permanent way of life, but rather about surfacing this energy for
transformation into the masculine receptive principle. It was about learning
what it Truly meant to be a Divinely Inspired Creative man in full expression
of his masculinity. Something, he figured, probably very few men upon Terra had
successfully accomplished. This gave Showay further reassurance and freedom to
delve deeper into the experience.
