Does your computer ever churn and churn? You know that little circle that just keeps on spinning? It looks like something is going on, but nothing ever happens. Does your life look like that? Doing and doing, but nothing ever happens.
I had a clear plan when I received my Doctorate in 1995. I turned my dissertation into a book that would begin my journey of sharing what I had / was learn(ed/ing). Over the few years before I began my Doctoral journey, I had been inspired in a direction that began with the dictionary, and evolved into the process defined in Dreams and Days. I conducted several experimental "workshops" and found that the process was easily definable and immediately available to the participants. It was rewarding and amazing to see the excitement on their faces and hear the ahhs and ohhs as events that had troubled them, sometimes for years were, made clear.
Soon after Martin and I had begun using Dreams and Days as the pivotal book in our journey with The Father, a refinement was revealed to me as I looked to define an extremely unusual sentence given to Martin by The Father. As sometimes happens, someone neutral can gain greater clarity about our confusion because they have no attachment to the information. It is sometimes the case that the process used in Dreams and Days requires a considerable amount of time, therefore it has to be "worth it". And this time it truly was.
As I re-examined what Father had told Martin, it was given to me to understand the reason there were contradictory definitions for many words in the dictionary is because one is the problem (unrighteous - unholy activity) and one is the solution (The Father's Truth). It was the first time I divided the two into different threads, or sentence re-constructions. All words in the dictionary do not have two opposite definitions. But it is usually the case that when they do, they become part of a greater learning.
From this point of progression I had great expectations. But as I look back, I realize all the doing has been churning and churning. Going nowhere, getting nothing done, but busy, busy, locked up.
Finally The Father was able to show me it has been fear that keeps the (wheel) circle turning. Even when fear has been reduced to a filigree of fence with no gate, it is enough to keep us from a place "you can call heaven"--it is enough to keep us out.
While I do not support "A Course in Miracles" as Truth, there are a few things that have given me cause for thought. One of these is, "if Love is the answer, what is the problem?" Of course when we are Love, there is no problem. And when we are Love there is no fear. So I already had the solution to the problem. And so do you.
On a SunShiny day filled with bubbles of Joy and lots of Love !